Well, this weekend, I got to experience the most heartbreaking experiences back to back! So I’m not sure if you’ve heard, but it feels like everyone has; one of my closest high school friends passed away last Friday in a motorcycle accident. Once I found the news, I contacted everyone I could, I wanted to attend the services- I intend to. Well, I stumbled across something extra- my boyfriend of 2 ish almost 3 if you count our dating stage, cheated on me!
Man has it been an eventful weekend. Am I happy? Obviously not, when I heard the news about Patty, as I endearingly have referred to him as since high school, all I wanted was my boyfriend to comfort me. Then I find out that not only did he cheat on me, she took photos and videos- but she didn’t tell me, her boyfriend did! Wanna know the craziest part? This was his ex! AHHHHH! Anyways, here’s the song that I think broke me and is sticking with me right now:
Man, we lived together, I paid for his rent, car, insurance, and more. I was adulting!!! All I can think is, “I want my mommy.” Yes I’m 19 turning 20, but can I just be a kid for a bit? Just take a break, but I can’t. My mom’s not the most stable and I am completely independent. So here I am, in this empty apartment, in this empty room, by myself. At least I got the cat!
This song is about longing for your mom, for the care she gives you. It’s wishing you could just take a break from everything. They say bad things come in 3, and I don’t even wanna know what the third is. Mitski if I could go home, I would. I’ll wake up, go to my 8-4:30, come home, do my homework, and repeat. Hopefully I’ll get through this but all I want is him.
Mucha Musica 
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